Daily spewage of a bitter mind.

Its going to be a big day I can feel it. This is part where my stomach starts bouncing around inside, I start biting my nails and try to keep myself busy with work so I dont think about it. This afternoon I head over to Real for my 3 hour interview. And then when that is done I get to go home and either 1) stay home till KC gets home or 2) go back to work. I guess it all depends if it really does last 3 hours or not.

KC wanted to do something special tonight since it will be our last night this week together. Im supposed to come up with something I want to do but so far I havent had any ideas. I always pull through with ideas though it just sometimes takes me till the last minute to think up something.

And then I get to pack and tomorrow morning sometime I will be on my way back to Wisconsin. I still dont feel like getting on that planethe idea of it is not enticing at all. Someday Ill have to ride 1st class and see how that is.

Right now I just cant wait for it all to be over and Im home relaxing and (hopefully) celebrating everything thats been going on. KC told me a little while ago that I will have a job in 3 weeks. I think this is week 2 or 3 now. So Im hoping hes right. I wish I could be as confident as he appears to be.

Ill just keep my fingers cross and do my best.

It’s Monday.

I think I could stop there and everyone would sympathize. It’s not actually that bad as far as Monday’s go. My stomachs a mess today, my chest is tight and achy, traffic was a real bitch and my Starbucks is cold. COLD. But it is okay. I’m already over it.

This week is only a two day week for me. Wednesday morning I leave for Wisconsin and as much as a little vacation sounds nice the thought of all that traveling in a sardine can of a plane for hours on end makes me want to hide under my desk. My parents will never come visit me in the city; they avoid them at all costs, so it is my duty to come to them. Lucky me. And leaving KC behind already has me a bit down.

I spent the weekend accomplishing almost nothing on my own. Friday night I met KC at work, waited for his shift to be up and then took him out to the car dealership in Burien to buy a car. Saturday I had to wake up early to drive with KC into work and drive one of his cars home (since we left his old one at work the night before). Normally I’d be a real bitch about having to wake up early, but I hadn’t seen KC’s smile in days and now that the stress of a car is out of his life I get to see it again. I drove his car home after a eggnog latte from a few stores down, did the gym and just lazed around the house after that.

Saturday we decided to take princessembly out to dinner and a movie for her birthday (HAPPY BIRTHDAY EM!). It turned out to be a lot of fun even though our first choice in restaurant was out of the question (the place had a line out the door). But we found another place to stop and eat and then went and saw Polar Express in 3D at the Imax (which was my second viewing!).

And Sunday we slept in till the afternoon. I made breakfast and we did some shopping. We kept pretty busy all day. Towards the evening I began rewriting my journal in a different programming language (new version coming soon) for practice and only got the first page done when I got bored with that. Took a shower and relaxed in bed till it was time to sleep.

And here I am, Monday morning, with my cold latte and a stack of work I don’t even want to look at. Bah.

yesterday afternoon i took off work early to go home. where i sat waiting for an email from a manager at real networks. it finally came, it was a test. i had to do 3 programming tasks and send back my results.

i freaked a little at first, i was having issues getting my environment set up properly. finally everything seemed to click, i easily accomplished the 3 tasks i was given, wrote a quick little ditty on what i did and sent it back.

now i’m waiting to hear how i actually did. the one good thing about programming is that it either works or it doesn’t. so i know i did it right. but maybe someone did it a few minutes faster, or maybe someone formatted their code nicer, knew a better algorithm or a number of other things.
all i know is i learned the programming language i got tested on the night before, so no matter what i did pretty damn good. but i’ve always had that knack for picking up things in no time flat.

even so it’s hard to stand out when all you are is some lines of code in their inbox.

now i just want someone to email me and tell me the job is mine and i can get the hell outta here. i know that won’t happen…if anything i’ll get an interview. *sigh* someone give me a damn job already!

*hint-nudge-wink*